If today was your last day...

"If today was your last day, and tomorrow was too late, could you say goodbye to yesterday?  Would you live each moment like your last?" -Nickelback

Now normally, I really don't like Nickelback, but I really like the meaning of this song.  I know you're probably wondering why I'm writing a blog about today being your last, day, but I promise there's a legitimate reason behind all of this.

So tonight at small groups we were going around talking about what we liked in a certain set of verses we read earlier in the night. Everyone of course had different answers, and they were all really good, but there was one in particular that stood out. One of the verses said "When can I go and meet with God?", and she was talking about how, because of some things that had happened earlier this week, it made her think about like how none of us know when we're going to die, so we need to make the most of the time we have, or something along those lines. Anyways, then our groups started talking about how we really don't want to have to live with not really being able to tell everyone how much they mean to us, or how much they've impacted our lives in the long (or short) time that we've known them. And, I think you might be able to see where I'm going with this. Haley suggested that since this was on my mind I write letters to all of my friends just so I know that I don't have to worry about having to live with all of those thoughts/feelings if I ever lose one of them before I get the chance to talk to them. So, I figured since I'm too lazy to write all of this out, I'll just put it into one massive blog and send everyone the link when I feel like it. I guess I'll just end this part by saying that I love you guys sooooo much and don't know what I'd do without you!!!!!

To all of my friends at school,
You guys are seriously AMAZING!!!!  I don't know how I'd survive school without each and every one of you.  We probably have the weirdest mix of personalities in the history of the universe, but somehow it just works.  And this huge group of friends works.  Since 5th grade, I've had really not great experiences with friends at school, and when I was thisclose to giving up, you guys came into my life.  I can't wait to see what these next 2 and 1/2 years bring us.  Chelsea, Amanda, Robyn, Sukhi, Tia, Jonah, Taylor, Brie, Chandni, Sam, Maddy, Emily, and everyone else that I can't think of right now (stupid tiredness!!), you guys mean the world to me and I love you all!!!!!  Front row full of people who don't really belong in any other group FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ali,
Oh man, what an awesome 2 years it's been.  We've had some CRAZY times my friend.  I can't think of any words to describe our friendship, that's how random it is!!  Nonetheless, I'm sooooo happy I can call you my seester/bestie.  Someday, we WILL go on the missions trip to New Zealand, cuz we're just amazing like that.  Legs ARE for real, Brian no longer lives in a submarine (ohh whatta day that was), never go "out of town", or else Erica will think awkward things, and umm yeah.  STEP STEP MERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!  Pretty Little Liars and the Lying Game are legit. I'm definitely gonna miss Bible study and Starbucks and stuff, but January isn't THAT far away, is it?  Ok, it is, but we can wait.  Panda is the greatest thing ever!!!!!!!  WE'RE FINALLY IN A SMALL GROUP TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I've overjoyed about this fact.  We need to go to the beach again next year, cuz that was awesome and I really need a new turtle necklace.  Anywho, you're an awesome friend and I'm super jealous of your ability to not let drama bug you too much.  Consider yourself extremely lucky to have that gift.  Love you seester!!!!!!!

Michele and Janna,
You guys are incredible!!  I don't know how I would have gotten through 6th grade without the two of you.  You've helped me with SOOOOO much in life, and have definitely impacted my life in an awesome way.  I miss being about to talk and hang out with you guys all the time, but life happens I guess.  I think the fact that we don't get to talk as much makes the times we DO get to talk even more special.  I hope you guys keep working with 56 as long as possible because I know they really need your guys' influence in their lives.  It definitely changed my life and way of thinking, and that's a good thing.  I can't wait to see how God uses you in the lives of the other elementary kids you work with and I'm SUPER excited to see how your kids end up, cuz they're pretty cool if you ask me!!  Love you guys to death!!!!!

Haley,
Oh Hales, you're seriously awesome.  I don't know what I would do without you, and I really cherish our friendship.  You're the greatest daughter ever.  Thanks for being the Rory to my Lorelai (cuz you know I just had to throw in a Gilmore Girls reference in there!!).  We need to keep this freaky same-brained thing going cuz it's really fun creeping people out with it.  I'm sooooo happy that Erica brought you to Broomball last year, cuz I probably wouldn't know you if she hadn't.  I love watching what God's done in your life since OGN, and I'm excited to see what else He's going to do in the years to come.  I can't wait til we're at Point Loma together (in college), cuz you know that's definitely going to happen!!!!  Please please PLEASE continue to be an evil 4 year old and an 80 year old cuz we both know you have WAY too many centuries ;) and keep being a soupsock homeschooled kid with me (secretly, of course!!!)  Love you chica!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Erica,
It has been awesome getting to know you over the past 6 years.  It's crazy that we've known each other since 4th grade and now we're in 10th.  We've had our fair share of ups and downs, but every sucky thing that we've gone through has only made our friendship stronger and more unique.  You know I'm always here for you no matter what, and I know it's the same vice versa.  How I would've survived the last 5 years of small groups without you, I have NO idea!!  You were my sanity last year, and this year we're in like the greatest group ever and I'm really happy that we get to go through another year together.  I don't know what I would do without your advice on everything from friends to guys to God.  I can't wait to see what God is going to do with you in the future, and I know it'll be something totally great!!  Thanks for being like the sister I've always wanted, but never got!!!!!  I really treasure our friendship, and I hold you in my heart (Christy Miller reference FTW!!!)  Oh, and please think of that one day at church every time you go out of town ;) Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And, last but not least...

Alyssa,
Ohhh Junior.  This is going to be the letter that makes me write til midnight.  I think we have one of the weirdest stories ever, yeah?  If someone had told me at the beginning of last summer that you would seriously make a huge difference in my life by the end of that summer, I definitely would NOT have believed them.  Then the "OGN night" came.  I had a lot to talk about, and no one to talk to.  Like seriously, at that point in my life I felt like I had no adult to talk to, and because of other experiences (which I will someday tell you), I had some problems really being able to trust people.  Then, that night came and you were randomly online, so I figured I'd message you cuz you had been commenting on my status earlier.  Yup, this whole friendship got started over a status.  I remember that night you telling me that you may not be Karen, but I could talk to you whenever I needed to.  And I definitely thought about it and figured why not?  Now, over a year later, I'm SOOOOO glad I decided to trust you with everything.  You've had such a huge impact in my life over the last year, and I'm most definitely not the same person I was a year ago.  I don't know what my life would be like without you, and I'm glad I didn't have to go down that road.  Out of all of the friendships I've had over the course of the short 15 and 1/2 years I've been alive, this one ranks in the top 5 of the best friendships I've ever had.  I really look up to you, and I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy I'm FINALLY in your small group!!!!!  I'm going to be SUPER mad if you end up moving, but I know God has a plan, even if it doesn't involve me (even though it really should!!)  Thanks for always being there for me no matter what.  I don't know what I would do without you!!  You're the best unbiological mom ever (even though you're the only one I've had).  And this is getting waaaayyyy too long and sentimental, and I feel like I'm just rambling now, and it's almost midnight, so I'm just gonna stop there.  I don't think you'll ever know how much you mean to me or how much you've influenced every aspect of my life.  Thanks for being one of the few people that really get me.  I swear it's cuz of our whole same brain thing.  And, I'll always be your little accident prone narwhal!!!!  Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!